As I waved goodbye to my daughter this morning I can’t help but be filled with a range of emotions. I watch her walk down the front steps without a fear in the world, wave goodbye to momma with a big smile on her face. Hear the sound of music playing on the car radio and start to dance as she holds daddy’s hand while waiting to get in the car. I feel so much happiness that this little girl is not afraid to be who she is. She hasn’t experienced anything in her short life that will stop her from being who she is. She truly dances like nobody is watching. I love that. I never want her to loose that. But sadly someday she probably will. I feel so much responsibility to nurture her confidence.
I want her to own the world and forever and always be herself.
Yet, I know that myself and her dad are not the best role models and both lack confidence that inhibits our ability to be ourselves and truly go for what we want in life sometimes. I never want her to experience that.
I want her to be confident with who she is, ALWAYS dance like no one is watching and not be afraid to go after what she deserves in life.
But how do we nurture that as parents when we do not embody it ourselves. So I grow sad, sad as I watch her dance for the world to see, simply because there is music and she likes to move it move it. Knowing that someday she will stop, stop doing what comes naturally to her, stop and look to make sure that no one is watching before she gets her groove thing on.
But I am determined, determined to do all that I can to let her know that she can only be herself, no one else, as everyone else is taken.